in which i look at an old photo (part 9)

Back in May of 2024 I read an article that suggested photographers could benefit from looking at their old photos as if they were made by a different person. At the time, I was skeptical about the idea, but what the hell…I did it anyway. And here’s me doing it again, for the 9th time.

What’s weird is the fact that I’ve never been at all interested in looking at my old photos. I understand a lot of photographers do that, but it never made much sense to me. I mean, I shot those photos; I know what they look like. I’ve already seen them; I want to see something new.

Without rereading the original post (or the original article), I can’t quite recall the actual point of this exercise. I think the idea was that by looking at one of your old photos as if some other photographer had shot it, you can learn more about yourself as a photographer. That doesn’t sound quite right, but I’m pretty sure it had something to do with dissociating yourself from your work and evaluating it. Whatever the point was, it was apparently enough for me to go rummaging through my digital archives.

Which brings me to this:

7:43 PM, Saturday, February 11, 2006

I shot this about two months after buying my first digital camera–an Olympus C770UZ. We’re talking four megapixels. I’d put away my Canon A1 a couple years earlier, bored with photography (most of the photos I’d shot in the preceding years were job-related: forensic photos of crime scenes or surveillance photos). A friend had bought one of those Olympus cameras and it looked like fun. So I bought one and started playing with it.

This photo was shot at night, a 15 second exposure, illuminated with a flashlight. It’s just one of my old arson boots, jammed full of dead grass I’d gathered during the day, and set on top of a clay flowerpot. No idea why; I must have been in a Dadaist mood. I even gave the photo a title: Vase.

You know, I’m starting to understand some of the value of looking at old photos. I was a lot more playful with photography back then. I think having a digital camera–being liberated from the expense and constraints of film–gave me more freedom to just try weird shit and immediately get a sense of whether that weird shit worked. I recall getting several friends to simultaneously throw objects into the air, which I’d then photograph. Things like footwear or toys or pieces of fruit, hovering in the air.

Now I think of it, my first foray into Instagram was a project I called Things on a Table, which had a somewhat Dadaist anti-art nonsensical vibe, and was also sparked by the purchase of new tech; in this case, a cellphone with a decent camera. Since it wasn’t a ‘real’ camera and Instagram wasn’t a ‘serious’ photo app, I could just fiddle around with them. The project involved finding a thing, putting that thing on a glass-topped patio table, then photographing the thing. I wrote about Things on a Table back in 2014.

I may have to consider doing some sort of Dadaist project. Preferably one that doesn’t require buying new tech.

is he making this up as he goes along? “obiviously.”

As you almost certainly know, Comrade Trump was recently asked how much thought he was giving to the financial situation of Americans in his negotiations with Iran. His answer:

“Not even a little bit. The only thing that matters when I’m talking about Iran—they can’t have a nuclear weapon. I don’t think about Americans’ financial situation. I don’t think about anybody. I think about one thing—we cannot let Iran have a nuclear weapon. That’s all.”

For the moment, let’s just ignore the fact that Iran has NO nuclear weapons and currently lacks the capacity to create them. Let’s just focus on that statement and the reaction to it. Obviously, a LOT of US citizens were offended and angered by it. But what about Trump’s base? Specifically, let’s see what the Trump-loving ‘patriots’ at FreeRepublic had to say about it.

You may be surprised (well, I was surprised) to find Freepers were almost evenly divided about Trump’s comments (and his ‘excursion’ in Iran in general). I expected the majority to be maximally Trump-brained, and some most certainly were.

You can always count on CBS to slice out a piece of a Trump statement to make it sound as bad as possible. Keeping the nukes out is well worth the price but the Trump haters have no vision beyond that hatred.
by gibsonguy

Nothing would destroy the USA financial well-being like an Iranian nuke going off in a major city.
by ProtectOurFreedom

America first means doing what it takes to remove the Iran nuclear threat. How is this so hard to understand? I would gladly pay $7 at the pump if that’s what it takes.
by Kleon

Why aren’t Liberals mad at Iran for the high gas prices and general disorder in the mid east?
by Az Joe

As the leader of the free world you need to lead by example and through the strength that you possess to do the right thing and stand up for other democracies… Israel is the only Democratic country in the Middle East. By standing with them you instill discipline within the world community, and establish your credentials as the leader of the free world.
Imagine if you will, letting Israel flounder and allowing it to be nuked by Iran… That would be a terrible example and other countries would start losing respect for America. The United States must lead… Sitting on your arse is not an option.
by jerod

Terrorist muslims bent on death to America with a nuclear weapon is the GREATEST threat to our national security that I can think of.
Trump is not doing this because he wants to but because he cares more about America than those who preceded him office and likely cares more than those who will likely succeed him.
by Biblebelter

That’s pretty much what I was expecting to find. But hold on to your keffiyehs, friends, because a surprising number of Freepers are angry and disgusted with Trump and his war against Iran. Who’d a thunk it?

I watched that video and proves Trump is out of touch with the average American but he is more worried about his Stock Market pals… He will pay a steep price for being out of touch. Wonder what happened to America First!
by dpetty121263

Americans who don’t watch CBS, who voted for Trump, are also economically hurting right now.
by CondoleezzaProtege

If Trump is dead set with Iran not having nuclear weapons then he needs to put troops on the ground instead of doing it all by air right now. He also would not be negotiating.
He is making things worse by negotiating. This is his screw up. The economy is going to crap. Republicans will lose big. Either pull out or go all the way in.
Obiviously he is making it up as he is going along and this adventure was poorly planned.
by moviefan8

Tucker says Iran is no where close to having a nuke. Tucker has intelligence that is so much better than Trump’s. Trump just wanted to go to war because, well because, er well…cause Epstein.
by Sir Bangaz Cracka

What most likely happened was Trump believed he was going to replay his grand Venezuelan victory out in Tehran. It blew up in his face, and now we all have to pretend that we were going to get incinerated at any moment if Trump had not blundered into this stupid war
by hcmama

There you are. Trump, being Trump, naturally had to double down on his comment. When asked about it after his return from China, he said, “It’s a perfect statement. I’ll make it again. Everybody agrees.”

President Xi Jinping and…you know, that guy.

He’s right, sort of. Almost everybody does agree–that Trump doesn’t know what the hell is going on, isn’t capable of understanding what’s going on even if he knew, and doesn’t have a plan to deal with what’s going on. Obiviously (which is probably how Trump pronounces it).

ENDNOTE: Just to be clear, at present Iran has neither the material nor the capacity to make any nuclear weapons. The CIA has confirmed it would take at least one year to create a nuclear weapon IF they had the technologies necessary to produce enough fissile material and to design and implement a delivery system with a proper detonation system. And they don’t have that. Obiviously.

iran 1, america 0

Okay, this is humiliating. The United States initiated an unprovoked war with Iran…and we lost. We lost in every measurable way. In the 250 year history of the US, we’ve never suffered such a calamitous and decisive strategic loss.

The US military may never recover from this. Oh, sure, over time we can rebuild our weapon stockpiles. And we’ll maintain technological military superiority over (most of) the world. But in terms of reputation and confidence, we’ve shit in our pants. That stink won’t go away.

We have Comrade Trump and Pete Hegseth to directly blame for this. But it’s not only the fault of those fuckwits. We elected Trump. You and I may not have voted for him, but there’s no escaping the fact that we, as a nation, elected him a second time, knowing exactly who and what he is. We elected him and, again, that stink won’t go away.

Obviously, starting a war with Iran was massively stupid in the first place. Hell, starting a war with any nation instead of using the soft power of diplomacy is massively stupid. But Jesus suffering fuck, if you’re stupid enough to start a war, at the very least you need to make sure you have a solid, practical plan to win it. At the very least, make sure you have clear objectives that are attainable militarily. At the very least, make sure you have a plan for after you’ve achieved those objectives. At the very fucking least, make sure you can justify the war to the families and friends of the troops who’ll die in it.

But all that would require professional military leaders. We don’t have many of those left. Pete Hegseth saw to that. There’s never been a Secretary of Defense so blatantly unqualified to hold that post as Pete Hegseth. A long history of serious alcohol abuse should have been enough to disqualify him. A repeated history of fiscal mismanagement (of both Concerned Veterans for America and Vets for Freedom) should have been enough to disqualify him. A history of marital infidelity and sexual abuse of women (including an accusation of rape that was derailed by a financial settlement with the accuser) should have been enough to disqualify him. His lack of military leadership experience should have been enough to disqualify him. Hell, his arrogant and offensive personality should have been enough to disqualify him

How can the US lose a war against Iran? Put this bonehead in charge.

But no. Trump wanted him and MAGA gives Trump whatever he wants. Hegseth is the only Secretary of Defense whose approval to the position required a tie-breaking vote by the Vice President. No Democrat voted for him; only three Republicans opposed him.

Hegseth proceeded to recreate the military in his own image. White, male, arrogant, reckless, careless, vindictive, testosterone-poisoned, extreme Christianist, and deeply deeply stupid. He and Trump approached Iran like schoolyard bullies. And Iran kicked sand in our face.

The United States is weaker now–weaker in almost every respect. Our international reputation is shit; our military has been effectively embarrassed, our economy is in shambles, any claim the US ever had to moral/ethical leadership is now as dead as Marley’s ghost.

Like I said at the beginning, this is humiliating. And (assuming this nation survives Trump and his MAGA lemmings) maybe that’s a good thing. Our only hope to regaining a place in civilized international society is to learn a little humility. We can’t just insist we’re great. We need to aim at just being decent, and hope we can make it so.